HELP - Crush on married man :(?

Hopefully have an affair? WTF? After you've already had with the guy in front of his wife? Would she be watching also whilst you have the affair? I'm sorry but those 3 paragraphs I just read are the most screwed up I've read in a while. She refused to join in the board games you guys were playing? Aww how unfun...maybe its because SHE HAS TO WATCH YOU HAVE WITH HER HUSBAND!